Little House in the forest

Just like you, I was born. My mom likes to joke that I was her April Fool's baby. She went into labor on April Fool's Day but did not have me that day. I made my grandparents the very next morning. Yes, that makes me an Aries. I thought you may need to know this little tidbit to piece together the madness that follows.

My earliest memories are of this Shack of a house that was green tiled roof and green tile around the outside of the walls. There was a room for a bathroom but no indoor plumbing in that room. We had a lovely outhouse that had to be relocated every so often you know: dig another hole and move that house take that dirt and throw it into the previous pit. Gross I know. However we did have a very nice Garden out there every year in the years to follow. I remember all the way back to win my first brother was about 2 years old which would make me about 4 years old. I remember that my mom's mom lived with us and she and I shared a queen size bed. It had one of those old antique metal not wrought iron But Metal headboard and footboard and bouncy spring platform that the mattress goes on. Oh and it was in the area that's supposed to be the dining room. I remember one night I went to bed hungry and had a dream that I was reaching out to grab a roll to eat it and was putting it to my mouth in my dream. My grandmother woke me up from that dream and I was really sad to see that it wasn't real. I remember the kitchen sink had one of those pumps well pumps. And when I had to go potty my grandma would take me in there and she would sit on the five gallon bucket and I would sit on the little pea pod and I guess probably somebody dumped all that out into the Outhouse later on I don't know it's just the whole place smells like pee I remember that smell. I remember one day my mom sitting in the chair by the front door crying because my step dad hasn't come home yet. That was a frequent event. But I remember standing in front of her kind of between her knees and I was telling her don't cry mommy every thing is going to be okay. Yeah I remember he came home staggering I think he'd been an accident probably one of those times when you wrecked a car one of many cars that he has crashed from drinking and driving. I remember when I was going to school I had to walk down the street to catch the school bus with my neighbor who is a few years older than me. And I never questioned it at the time but once I became an adult and would think back on that it blew my mind that none of the adults had to order child go to the younger child's driveway to wait for the bus. It was about a quarter of a mile. Sun, rain, snow, sleet... and when I was in kindergarten probably towards the end of that year I was six and my step dad's brother who was in the Air Force managed to get the money together from all the siblings and they built us a new house behind the old house. The old house got demolished. The new house was a Jim Walter home. Which means it was basically chalk. They built a new home with two bedrooms knowing that we had a boy and a girl in the family and they may need to have their own room have their own room eventually. No that did not happen. Maybe about a year later my second brother came along making that 900 something square foot house even more cramped.

My step-dad had a very low IQ because he stopped school in about the fifth grade to help with the farm. My mom had a very low IQ as well. She quit school in the 9th grade when she got pregnant with me. She was 17 and in the 9th grade. I think I will go more in-depth with that later. I'm starting to get depressed about all this so I will pick this back up hopefully tomorrow.

Renew

It appears that it takes me a couple years between blogs. That's a shame. I really want to write more often. There's so much in my head that I need to put down and work through and kind of like do self therapy with. Now that I have voice to text  I have a feeling things are going to change around here .

So I am making a resolution to blog much much much more often. The first of which shall be in the next post