Step one to healing?

took kiddos to school.

Got home and the Bro (mentally handicapped) had put all the dishes away - the DIRTY DISHES!! 

Now, I got those done, that I'd planned to PROcrastinATE, I put out some job apps, and now putting off going out to fax some important doc's. 
 
Still have migraine. 

Had counsel yesterday. 
Nice.

1st lesson on letting go of worry about Jamal's wife problems even though I have good intentions.

I've been thinking to myself ... never to anyonelse for fear that I might be right... that I might be part of the problem.
 
I know I come across harsh.  I've never been one to "beat around the bush."  I am impatient and "tell it like it is."  I have never denied that.  But how severe is this issue, really?  Having not gotten to know Jamal's wife, she is a bit of a "fictional character" to me in a way so I think I have treat the "subject" of Taghreed as ok for me to be involved in. I need to respect that she is a real person and deserves her privacy and I need to leave that subject alone.  Whatever happens between them is not for me to worry about or discuss to anyone else.  The matter that she doesnt want to talk with me is HER issue, not mine, and I have to leave it at that.
 
So, After making a final decision with the counselor yesterday that I want to be away from Jamal, guess what??  He shows up at my house last night with food.  (somewhere during that time, my eyeglasses got knocked off the table and someone stepped on them!!) He's made dinner reservations for he and I, but after I kept refusing, he did this. I ended up running out of the out, pitch black outside, ran to McDonalds - without glasses.  He ended up following me after he prayed. We got coffee and drove and talked and drove and talked.  He's still trying to convince me that we belong together.  I'd totally agree if there wasnt the other MARRIAGE that exists!!
 
OMG, I have this migraine for over a week.  I didnt work the temp jobs yesterday nor today and cant tomorrow cuz I have to check out this day program for Bro.
 
Think I'll go take a nap and put off the blog.